Tears...
Tears most often fall from eyes when the hearts is filled with sadness. However sometimes it happens such that our heart is overwhelmed with feelings and overflowing with pain. You want to relieve your pain by venting it out through a tearfall but it seems that the eyes don't approve of the idea. You already feel helpless and hurt and being unable to cry worsens your feeling as the lump in your throat further signifies the level of control you have over things or your own self.  You want to cry to express yourself and to liberate yourself from the shackles of pain but inability to donso makes you feel that maybe you deserve to experience this pain. It very well suits you and each second of feeling the anxiety and pain is a reward or a punishment of taking he wrong decisions or not taking any decision. Life is all about action and in-action. We sometimes do wrong to ourselves or sometimes let others do wrong to ourselves.

 Some tears are not visible they can only be felt nd these r the ones u want to hide frm others. You dont want your eyes to reveal the secrets of your heart. You dont want them to grant access to people to know whats happening within you. 

Tears whether of happiness or sadness are better if shed. They might not solve anything but they bring you closer to yourself. At least you have understood what your heart is saying and how it feels.